i've figured it out!

so my brother sister and i are odd.
as if you couldn't figure out that i'm odd.

but yeah.

i've figured out what it comes from.

enter exhibit one:


so. we loved beetlejuice as kids. still do.
so our parents bought us this lovely toy.
not only is it a creepy toy of beetlejuice.
but. it also has a pull chord and talks.
and if a talking beetlejuice isn't creepy enough for you kids...
his head spins.
you crank his head once around [or more if you're into that]
and push a button on his back.
and his head spins around and around.

seriously.
creepiness.
not a good toy for children.

and now onto exhibit two:


this wonderful toy is called jibber jabber.
he's looks innocent.
but he's not.
remember those tubes things that had that thing in it and if you tipped the tube, it made a fun noise?
well jibber jabber has two in his head.
running in opposite directions.

the point of the toy:
grab him by the neck.
then shake violently.

result:
annoyed parents and children who like to strangle their toys.

onto exhibit three:


glo worm.
[not the key chain version]

now many of you will have fond memories of glo worm.
i know i did.
as did my brother [4 yrs younger]
as did my sister [7 yrs younger].

now the issue with this toy in my family...
it still has the original batteries.
and he still glows.
i'm not sure how old i was when i got it..
not more than 2 probably.
and now i'm going on 22.
that's 20 years.
and the batteries still function quite well.

we're afraid to open the back.



there ends my realization as to what is wrong with my brother sister and i.
i thought you all would enjoy.
or at least get a laugh.

:c)

mental throw up

we're calling this mental throw up because i have so much crap running around my head and can't concentrate on studying for my wonderful [*rolls eyes*] Romantics exam tomorrow.

- i sat in traffic for over an hour yesterday on my drive back from jersey. so not only did i have to drive 6 hrs. but once i got to downtown buffalo... i had to wait over an hour to get from downtown [by the church st. exit] to get over the peace bridge. of course i was making the trip alone. and i had to pee. apparently everyone and their mother wanted to go to the states for easter weekend. forcing me to pray that my bladder would make it all the way back to st catharines.

- ever have that feeling where you have a ton of pent up energy but dont have the motivation to go running or something, but the energy won't let you concentrate? well... welcome to my life right now. i couldn't sleep last night for a long time. went to bed around 11:30... around 10 to 12 i got up and read for awhile. that didn't put me to sleep so i ended up playing online till about 1:30. then laid in bed till i finally fell asleep. ugh. this sucks. i feel like going running, but i can't. i don't have the motivation and i need to study for this exam.

- i really don't want to write this exam tomorrow. its not that it will be a hard exam. but its my only exam. and i know my stuff. so its more of hassle because i have to get up early, be at the school, sit in a gym where concentration is nearly impossible, and write a 3 hour exam. yippee. oh. and when i'm done with that... gotta come home and write an essay.

- wedding. 95 days away. seriously. 95. that's not a lot. we've gotta get a lot of stuff done. especially because i go home for the summer this weekend. and i want to make sure most of the stuff is done. grrr. i wish i could take a time out from life and get it all done.

- i just feel like going into a room and screaming. that might make me feel better.

*sigh*
maybe that will clear my brain so i can study.
if not... i'm going to the mall to find josh an anniversary present.
i hate school.

my brain hurts.

Rain

So its been a long time since I've seen a thunderstorm. There's one going on outside right now. And its amazing.

I just took a moment to step back and just wonder at it all and life. I was standing on Josh's balcony [luckily the wind blows the rain away from the balcony]. I just stood there for about 20 minutes and just watched.

I watched the rain as it fell. Watched how it fell harder and softer sometimes. I watched how it looked like the water out of a hose does where it hits certain areas harder than others. I watched the lightening. I watched the clouds fly by with the crazy wind. There was a plastic bag that the wind caught that flew all the way up to above me... and I'm on the fourth floor. I watched Tom [the fix-it guy] chase a bag around and then run for cover when it started pouring again. I watched as the kids running from the high school across the street suddenly picked up speed because of the rain. I laughed at them because they were drenched. I watched the Oriental guy next door come out and take a picture of the clouds [I didn't find anything exciting about the clouds, but that goes to show you that he appreciates things I don't]. I watched cars fly by.

And I listened.

I listened to the thunder [still am]. I listened to the cars fly by in the rain [I love that sound]. I listened to the kids from the high school laughing and yelling at each other to hurry up to get inside. I listened to the wind as it blew me away.

And I smelled.

I smelled the rain. God that's an amazing smell.


I felt so calm about everything. I still do.
Man. I love thunderstorms.

I feel like everything is put into perspective now. Can't explain it. It just feels so.


[I hope the storm doesn't cool everything off too much... I want to go rollerblading tonight]